4/23/2021 0 Comments Infertility After BabyInfertility Awareness Week has evolved for me over the last couple of years. One year ago I was pregnant. This year I have our long-awaited baby in my arms. It's easy to think that infertility is behind me; it's easy for others to see me as just another mom with babe in arms. And yet infertility will always be a chapter in my story, a chapter filled with heartache and hope, a chapter that has forever changed me as a person, as a woman, and as a mother.
Now that my days are less filled with longing and more filled with laughter and laundry (and all the other beautiful and messy tasks of caring for an infant), I can look back on my fertility journey with much gratitude. The lessons I have learned about not comparing my story to others, grounding myself in present moment awareness, giving myself permission to feel whatever it is that I feel, practicing gratitude each and every day, releasing what I do not have control over, making healthy choices where I do have agency, remaining open to new and unexpected paths I may not have previously considered, trusting that "I am enough" regardless of what I do, deeply listening to the wisdom of my body, and paying attention to God's invitation to healing, wholeness, justice and love... all of this and so much more have made me a better mother and better human being. I am still very much a work in progress; I don't ever want to stop being a learner. While I feel grateful today, I do not wish infertility on anyone. The struggle is heartbreaking - the hope, fragile. I hope for a miracle and happy ending for everyone even though I know that it's not always the case - there are no guarantees in this thing called life. Know that you are not alone. Know that there are circles of support that can carry you. Know that you are in my prayers, whether I know your name or not.
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