5/30/2019 0 Comments WaitingIn the three+ years that I've traveled on this journey thus far, I have spent more time on a break than I have in an active treatment cycle. When you want to be pregnant - like, yesterday - waiting is an often undesired and yet essential component to the fertility process. The first time a treatment cycle was delayed, I cried for an entire day. Waiting isn't always easy, but I've definitely become more comfortable with the breaks. Taking the long view and understanding the fertility journey as a marathon rather than a sprint has been helpful. While it can sometimes feel like it, waiting doesn't actually mean that I won't ever get pregnant...just not yet.
I have found ways to be active in the waiting, to stay engaged so that I feel like I'm still in the game. Eating properly (at least 80% of the time), daily walking and yoga, spiritual practices such as centering prayer and journaling, cultivating gratitude, and reading inspiring books or listening to good podcasts are just some of the ways that I've used these in-between times. Waiting has also been a time for some deep self-reflection and to recognize the important lessons learned. I have faced some of my biggest fears while walking this TTC path and while I have yet to reach the outcome that I desire, I have learned that I am braver and stronger than I would have ever imagined and for that I am so, so grateful. I have learned that "enough" is more attainable than "perfect." I have learned that I will survive even if the outcome I fear the most becomes reality. I have learned that there is a lot that I can't control, and some critical things that I can such as how I take care of myself, including seeking support. I have learned that there is a sisterhood of women out there; we are each taking the steps that no one else can take for us but walking the path together makes all the difference. p.s. If you want to learn more, here's a great article on active waiting.
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